Change..

How much do we really change as we age…how much do we develop as we grow? The next few paragraphs are just my speculation on life, are not real facts, and people will disagree…but just remember, these are only my opinions…

I’m only 16…still pretty young…but yet, I’ve been through a lot in my life, a lot more than any regular teenager…the only things I haven’t done was drugs and get in trouble with the law. Thankfully so…considering I’m an honors student with over a 4.0GPA.

But I’ve grown…and as I look back…merely three years ago…I was 13, sitting in my room, thinking I was so awesome, listening to Green Day, thinking that everyone was out to get me…now I know I was a pretty big idiot. I mean, now, I’ve grown up…I’m mature, I think rationally…I still believe people are out to get me…but not because they hate me…just because they can’t understand me.

I have faced a lot in my life…all the experiences, the changes, the let-downs in life. Now I believe that who I am is a mixture of my life, come together…because of all the hardships, I’m emphatic. I’m more in tune with my emotions than normal people are with theirs.

Plus, more the talk of the school…I’m considered an emo/goth…and I’d agree with most of them…I do perfer gothic emo looking things…I prefer Dashboard Confessionals and Evanescence and Hawthorne Heights…I do write emotional tear-jerking poetry that has made people cry…and I have my own blog. But all these things…all that makes up who I am…is it all because of the experiences I’ve faced in the past? Of all the changes I’ve undergone?

I think so. I think that who everyone’s personalities are based on delicate details…small events can alter a person’s life forever…

And because of the delicate details of my life…I have gained many things I’m thankful for…my empathy, my sensitivity, my intelligence, and my future, my livelihood…my writing…….

This rant went in many places…but I kinda needed to vent…thanks for reading…

-Dekkun-

~ by dekkun on March 15, 2008.